NEVA

i am I

This album was an accident but began the development of a whole new sound that was probably the best thing that ever happened to my music. I raised $19k on Kickstarter in just 31 days. The first producers ran off with a chunk of the money and the 2nd producer didn’t feel the songs I had were marketable enough to record so he had someone make me a track. Although it sounded great, it sounded like everything else I had already heard and I wasn’t inspired and never wrote anything. Finally, I set out to make an acoustic album, which is the way I primarily perform, with just a cajon and some simple percussion. One thing lead to another and we ended up with a wall of world and hand made instruments backing these broken down, raw, acoustic tracks.

Acoustic/Roots/Rock is the best way we’ve found to describe the sound. These are essentially pop songs with some reggae influences coming from a rock background. Think new wave Paul Simon with an Adele/Melissa Etheridge type vocal.

 

 

  • 01

    i am I

    How long can this keep going on?
    How strong do I have to be to carry on?
    I’m chasing a soul that moves faster than I run
    Dragging bags, leaving friends, moving further from my home

    All I know is…
    I am, I am, I am I
    It’s alright

    I run when I’m supposed to be standing still
    Searching for uncertain things I need something new to feel
    I curse the internet for access to all of this
    endless knowledge and information we should all be geniuses

    All I’ve found is…
    I am, I am, I am I
    It’s alright

    Over and over I make mistakes and forget the lessons I’ve learned
    Playing with fire constantly and always getting burned
    I put off love in creative ways claiming I’m ready
    But if I only have one wine glass there there’s only going to be wine for me

    I am, I am, I am I
    I play for a living staying young at heart trying to live before I die
    I am, I am, I am I
    It’s alright

    I am, I am, I am I
    I’m coming in hot and I’m probably late but I’m shooting for the sky
    I am, I am, I am I
    I think it’s going to be alright

  • 02

    Uncomfortable

    I’m amazed at how the body works
    The mind triggers these parts to hurt
    Before you know it you’re standing there, broken down beyond repair
    But it’s fuel for the fire and as the flame it gets higher
    I just want everything, everything, everything, and anything at all

    So maybe fate’s got it out for me, maybe it’s just hypocrisy All this who am I? And who are you?
    End up equal, valid points of view

    We exist the ways we choose to see
    And images change constantly
    As we complicate, we complicate, we complicate,
    We complicate it all

    If my spirit breaks, it’s just a phase
    Cause you ain’t ever going to bring me down
    (I don’t want your diamond ring, I don’t want your diamond ring)
    And if the body shakes, it’s just a sign
    you’d better get your feet back on the ground
    (I don’t want your diamond ring, I just want anything)

    We’re all so simple in these complex little ways
    It’s not easy being honest with all we’d have to face
    But if the road less traveled, is the road to happiness
    I hope we find a way to turn around
    And disregard the rest
    I know that maybe I’m outspoken, but I don’t do repressed
    You’re never knowing, you’re only hoping
    You’re just hoping for the best

    So if my spirit breaks, It’s just a phase
    No you ain’t ever going to bring me down
    And if the body shakes, it’s just a sign
    You’d better get those feet back on the ground

    I don’t want your diamond ring
    I just want anything you feel, that’s real,
    That makes you uncomfortable

  • 03

    Days and Dollars

    Take me to a peaceful place where I can give my soul a break
    cause it's time
    Some mistakes are hard to right, a lesson learned
    feels more like a fight

    Help me to believe someday soon I'll understand

    So far, far away
    Feels the world from this little life
    Days and dollars disappear but I see you all the time
In the back of my mind

    It's not easy staying focused on the real things without giving into doubt, no doubt
    When I think of you I think of me but you're still so hard to figure out

    We're all trying our best to become the person we see in our minds

    So far, far away
    Feels the world from this little life
    Days and dollars disappear but I see you all the time
In the back of my mind

    And I'd rather be so crazy
To them all than to myself

    So far, far away
Feels your world from my little life
    Days and dollars disappear but I see you all the time
And I hear you all the time
    Still I feel you all the time
    In the back of my mind

  • 04

    Too Raw

    You say you've found the balance
    between love your work and home
    What difference does it make?
    Because this life is ever changing
    and our balance comes in waves
    So what difference does it make?

    For so long now...I have walked beneath your pedestal

    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    You find your balance on waves
    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random

    I was in search of any answers your words were to retain
    But I fear there's been a mistake
    Because as much as you're admired
    I've my own life to attain so really...
    What difference do we make?

    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    You find your balance on waves
    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
    Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
    You wouldn't show.....

    For no longer now shall I walk beneath ones pedestal

    All I wanted was
    to form a constitution for my piece of mind
    Now I am dealing with the resolution
    that what's mine in mind is only mine
    And I balance this weight different all the time

    All along down this dusty road tell me what difference do we make?

  • 05

    Isolated Movements

    The phone’s not ringing but I hear the buzzing
    Of silence circling my head
    The room is spinning but nothing’s moving
    But the echo of all that’s been said

    I count from one to ten and I - Focus in on the air
    I count from one to ten but I
    Only see what’s not there

    These isolated movements
    These isolated moves don’t make dance

    Before this restless soul becomes dependent on
    Some other strangers foreign destiny
    I must keep on with, all that’s changing
    From black and white to grey to red to green

    Before I count from one to ten I try
    To lighten up this heavy scene
    But as I near the top I panic
    I wonder what I’ve ever been

    These isolated movements
    These isolated moves don’t make dance

    When I wake up, my mind is made up
    Of red flags and sour harmonies
    And it’s so lonely, so very lonely
    When the silence is all that you can breathe

    They say you can step up and conquer all
    With a positive empowered mind
    But what if all you’ve got can’t break your fall
    In silence you lose all your time

    These isolated movements
    These isolated moves don’t make dance

  • 06

    Wish for the Sky

    You got in my head and burned your way down into my heart
    Relaxed and rested deep in my soul
    And you expect me not to fight

    What should I make and take from all of this?
    To give up my dreams and live on lifeless
    It was a gift from you and you’re trying to take it all back

    I must be doing something wrong or maybe my fate is not that strong
    But I know this love can’t just add up to nothing
    I know, I know

    I’ve got a wish for the sky
    I’m going to plead till I die
    That I’ve got something you want, something that’s good
    But you’re killing me, you’re killing me as cruel as you can

    So I looked into change for any other way that this could go
    Each time I gave up screaming, “I told you so”
    With all else defied, you’re the only right for me
    You’re the only way I see

    Maybe I’m doing something wrong - Maybe my fate is not that strong
    But I know all this love can’t just add up to nothing
    I swear, I swear

    I’ve got a wish for the sky
    I’m going to plead till I die
    That I’ve got something you want, something that’s good
    But you’re killing me, you’re killing me as cruel as you can

    I get your messages they’re carved in stone
    How can I give up when it’s all I’ll I’ve known
    You can take my legs but leave my soul alone
    Give me a way

  • 07

    Blessings

    You stand so close yet you’re still a world away
    It’s hard to recognize my good, good friend
    You let the shadows over come the light
    So obvious yet so quick to defend

    What were you expecting of me
    To turn my head and say I don’t see
    How your wounded heart is now made of steel
    That empty promises can’t heal

    Count your blessings, blessings, blessings in life

    And the roots that we planted so long ago
    Some grew up and some just grew apart
    I find it harder and harder to relate
    to this crooked way you play the part

    What were you expecting of me
    To close my eyes and say that I can’t see
    How your wound heart is now made of steel
    That empty promises can’t heal

    Count your blessings, blessings, blessings in life

    Moving further away from here
    The longer you run the stronger the fear
    All that’s been taken, all wrong that’s been done
    Were blessings and gifts you first must have won

    Count your blessings, blessings, blessings in life

  • 08

    Light

    I soar through this world like a paper plane
    One swift wind and I’m blown off course again
    He lands on my wings like a sweet soft mist
    He comes to cool me off but he dries out quick
    It’s never planned the way we crash every time we land

    I think it’s time you shine a little bit of your light on me
    As cold as I’ve been getting I could use that warmth from your heat

    I read through them like I read through books
    Either bored or obsessed and I’ve often mistook the way it ends in a basic summary
    The way the course bends when he’s breathing next to me

    I think it’s time you shine a little bit of your light on me
    As cold as I’ve been getting I could use that warmth from your heat
    So please just save a little bit of your light for me

    All flaws aside and mistakes forgiven
    Would it burn too bad if your light hit mine?
    Would I turn for shelter to a cold dark place
    Safe from all the wind and the fight

    So the wind keeps blowing and the mist keeps drying
    It takes everything I’ve got to keep on flying but I know
    there’s a light above for me
    And one day I’m going to crash right into your heat

    And you’ll open up the skies and shine down that light on me
    I feel you getting closer but I need that warmth from your heat
    I hope you saved some of that bright light for me

  • 09

    Things I'll Never Be

    You may be my one and only savior
    For this mending heart to learn to bend
    Cause it just hurt so bad to love you like that
    Knowing all along how it would end

    You may be but the most biggest failure
    For my will to recognize such pain
    The things I saw from so far away
    Were clear in sight in the middle of the day
    But i didn't want to talk about those things

    And it showed right from the start
    Never could I leave you - Never could I part

    One of these days I'll forget about you
    Forget about all the things you'll never do
    One of these days you'll forget about me
    Forget about all the things I'll never be

    You may be my one and only savior
    For this mending heart to learn to bend
    Cause it just hurt so bad to love you like that
    Just knowing all along how it would end

    And it showed right from the start
    Never could I leave you - Never could I part
    And I froze down to the heart
    Hungry as I was I pulled myself apart

    And when I finally find a future past this fever
    I'll find a few beliefs here
    And once I start crying over better things than you
    Well I find some hope in truth

    One of these days I'll forget about you
    Forget about all the things I"ll never be
    On of these days you'll forget about me
    Forget about the things I'll never be

    The things I'll never be.....

  • 10

    Bring You Down

    If you raise your head high enough to see
    The light on the other side
    You'll see valleys of darkness and all you must defeat
    But they are places to pass through- Not to reside

    You know that I hold you high above the world we see
    Maybe I should bring you down
    Cause it's been so long and my arms have just been shaking weak
    How I hate to see you on the ground

    I know you've probably got your head around it
    and called it compromise
    But when you sleep are you scared to close your eyes
    We all had expectations of what our lives would be
    I think it's never too late to decide

    When I see you - I see through all your circumstantial moves
    Maybe I should close my eyes
    Cause it's been so long and I can't do anything but lose
    How I hate to see you compromised

    I hear you're fine
    I'm here, I'm trying
    To make it through all these valleys of my own

    You know that I hold you high above the world we see
    I think it's time I bring you down
    Cause it's been so long and my heart is just breaking weak
    How I hate to see you on the ground
    I think it's time I bring you down