Latest Release – i am I

• 01

  i am I

  Lyrics

  How long can this keep going on?
  How strong do I have to be to carry on?
  I’m chasing a soul that moves faster than I run
  Dragging bags, leaving friends, moving further from my home

  All I know is…
  I am, I am, I am I
  It’s alright

  I run when I’m supposed to be standing still
  Searching for uncertain things I need something new to feel
  I curse the internet for access to all of this
  endless knowledge and information we should all be geniuses

  All I’ve found is…
  I am, I am, I am I
  It’s alright

  Over and over I make mistakes and forget the lessons I’ve learned
  Playing with fire constantly and always getting burned
  I put off love in creative ways claiming I’m ready
  But if I only have one wine glass there there’s only going to be wine for me

  I am, I am, I am I
  I play for a living staying young at heart trying to live before I die
  I am, I am, I am I
  It’s alright

  I am, I am, I am I
  I’m coming in hot and I’m probably late but I’m shooting for the sky
  I am, I am, I am I
  I think it’s going to be alright
• 02

  Uncomfortable

  Lyrics

  I’m amazed at how the body works
  The mind triggers these parts to hurt
  Before you know it you’re standing there, broken down beyond repair
  But it’s fuel for the fire and as the flame it gets higher
  I just want everything, everything, everything, and anything at all

  So maybe fate’s got it out for me, maybe it’s just hypocrisy All this who am I? And who are you?
  End up equal, valid points of view

  We exist the ways we choose to see
  And images change constantly
  As we complicate, we complicate, we complicate,
  We complicate it all

  If my spirit breaks, it’s just a phase
  Cause you ain’t ever going to bring me down
  (I don’t want your diamond ring, I don’t want your diamond ring)
  And if the body shakes, it’s just a sign
  you’d better get your feet back on the ground
  (I don’t want your diamond ring, I just want anything)

  We’re all so simple in these complex little ways
  It’s not easy being honest with all we’d have to face
  But if the road less traveled, is the road to happiness
  I hope we find a way to turn around
  And disregard the rest
  I know that maybe I’m outspoken, but I don’t do repressed
  You’re never knowing, you’re only hoping
  You’re just hoping for the best

  So if my spirit breaks, It’s just a phase
  No you ain’t ever going to bring me down
  And if the body shakes, it’s just a sign
  You’d better get those feet back on the ground

  I don’t want your diamond ring
  I just want anything you feel, that’s real,
  That makes you uncomfortable
• 03

  Days and Dollars

  Lyrics

  Take me to a peaceful place where I can give my soul a break
  cause it's time
  Some mistakes are hard to right, a lesson learned
  feels more like a fight

  Help me to believe someday soon I'll understand

  So far, far away
  Feels the world from this little life
  Days and dollars disappear but I see you all the time
In the back of my mind

  It's not easy staying focused on the real things without giving into doubt, no doubt
  When I think of you I think of me but you're still so hard to figure out

  We're all trying our best to become the person we see in our minds

  So far, far away
  Feels the world from this little life
  Days and dollars disappear but I see you all the time
In the back of my mind

  And I'd rather be so crazy
To them all than to myself

  So far, far away
Feels your world from my little life
  Days and dollars disappear but I see you all the time
And I hear you all the time
  Still I feel you all the time
  In the back of my mind
• 04

  Too Raw

  Lyrics

  You say you've found the balance
  between love your work and home
  What difference does it make?
  Because this life is ever changing
  and our balance comes in waves
  So what difference does it make?

  For so long now...I have walked beneath your pedestal

  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  You find your balance on waves
  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random

  I was in search of any answers your words were to retain
  But I fear there's been a mistake
  Because as much as you're admired
  I've my own life to attain so really...
  What difference do we make?

  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  You find your balance on waves
  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  Aren't we only digging up our own graves?
  Too Raw - Too Rough - Too Random
  You wouldn't show.....

  For no longer now shall I walk beneath ones pedestal

  All I wanted was
  to form a constitution for my piece of mind
  Now I am dealing with the resolution
  that what's mine in mind is only mine
  And I balance this weight different all the time

  All along down this dusty road tell me what difference do we make?
• 05

  Isolated Movements

  Lyrics

  The phone’s not ringing but I hear the buzzing
  Of silence circling my head
  The room is spinning but nothing’s moving
  But the echo of all that’s been said

  I count from one to ten and I - Focus in on the air
  I count from one to ten but I
  Only see what’s not there

  These isolated movements
  These isolated moves don’t make dance

  Before this restless soul becomes dependent on
  Some other strangers foreign destiny
  I must keep on with, all that’s changing
  From black and white to grey to red to green

  Before I count from one to ten I try
  To lighten up this heavy scene
  But as I near the top I panic
  I wonder what I’ve ever been

  These isolated movements
  These isolated moves don’t make dance

  When I wake up, my mind is made up
  Of red flags and sour harmonies
  And it’s so lonely, so very lonely
  When the silence is all that you can breathe

  They say you can step up and conquer all
  With a positive empowered mind
  But what if all you’ve got can’t break your fall
  In silence you lose all your time

  These isolated movements
  These isolated moves don’t make dance
• 06

  Wish for the Sky

  Lyrics

  You got in my head and burned your way down into my heart
  Relaxed and rested deep in my soul
  And you expect me not to fight

  What should I make and take from all of this?
  To give up my dreams and live on lifeless
  It was a gift from you and you’re trying to take it all back

  I must be doing something wrong or maybe my fate is not that strong
  But I know this love can’t just add up to nothing
  I know, I know

  I’ve got a wish for the sky
  I’m going to plead till I die
  That I’ve got something you want, something that’s good
  But you’re killing me, you’re killing me as cruel as you can

  So I looked into change for any other way that this could go
  Each time I gave up screaming, “I told you so”
  With all else defied, you’re the only right for me
  You’re the only way I see

  Maybe I’m doing something wrong - Maybe my fate is not that strong
  But I know all this love can’t just add up to nothing
  I swear, I swear

  I’ve got a wish for the sky
  I’m going to plead till I die
  That I’ve got something you want, something that’s good
  But you’re killing me, you’re killing me as cruel as you can

  I get your messages they’re carved in stone
  How can I give up when it’s all I’ll I’ve known
  You can take my legs but leave my soul alone
  Give me a way
• 07

  Blessings

  Lyrics

  You stand so close yet you’re still a world away
  It’s hard to recognize my good, good friend
  You let the shadows over come the light
  So obvious yet so quick to defend

  What were you expecting of me
  To turn my head and say I don’t see
  How your wounded heart is now made of steel
  That empty promises can’t heal

  Count your blessings, blessings, blessings in life

  And the roots that we planted so long ago
  Some grew up and some just grew apart
  I find it harder and harder to relate
  to this crooked way you play the part

  What were you expecting of me
  To close my eyes and say that I can’t see
  How your wound heart is now made of steel
  That empty promises can’t heal

  Count your blessings, blessings, blessings in life

  Moving further away from here
  The longer you run the stronger the fear
  All that’s been taken, all wrong that’s been done
  Were blessings and gifts you first must have won

  Count your blessings, blessings, blessings in life
• 08

  Light

  Lyrics

  I soar through this world like a paper plane
  One swift wind and I’m blown off course again
  He lands on my wings like a sweet soft mist
  He comes to cool me off but he dries out quick
  It’s never planned the way we crash every time we land

  I think it’s time you shine a little bit of your light on me
  As cold as I’ve been getting I could use that warmth from your heat

  I read through them like I read through books
  Either bored or obsessed and I’ve often mistook the way it ends in a basic summary
  The way the course bends when he’s breathing next to me

  I think it’s time you shine a little bit of your light on me
  As cold as I’ve been getting I could use that warmth from your heat
  So please just save a little bit of your light for me

  All flaws aside and mistakes forgiven
  Would it burn too bad if your light hit mine?
  Would I turn for shelter to a cold dark place
  Safe from all the wind and the fight

  So the wind keeps blowing and the mist keeps drying
  It takes everything I’ve got to keep on flying but I know
  there’s a light above for me
  And one day I’m going to crash right into your heat

  And you’ll open up the skies and shine down that light on me
  I feel you getting closer but I need that warmth from your heat
  I hope you saved some of that bright light for me
• 09

  Things I'll Never Be

  Lyrics

  You may be my one and only savior
  For this mending heart to learn to bend
  Cause it just hurt so bad to love you like that
  Knowing all along how it would end

  You may be but the most biggest failure
  For my will to recognize such pain
  The things I saw from so far away
  Were clear in sight in the middle of the day
  But i didn't want to talk about those things

  And it showed right from the start
  Never could I leave you - Never could I part

  One of these days I'll forget about you
  Forget about all the things you'll never do
  One of these days you'll forget about me
  Forget about all the things I'll never be

  You may be my one and only savior
  For this mending heart to learn to bend
  Cause it just hurt so bad to love you like that
  Just knowing all along how it would end

  And it showed right from the start
  Never could I leave you - Never could I part
  And I froze down to the heart
  Hungry as I was I pulled myself apart

  And when I finally find a future past this fever
  I'll find a few beliefs here
  And once I start crying over better things than you
  Well I find some hope in truth

  One of these days I'll forget about you
  Forget about all the things I"ll never be
  On of these days you'll forget about me
  Forget about the things I'll never be

  The things I'll never be.....
• 10

  Bring You Down

  Lyrics

  If you raise your head high enough to see
  The light on the other side
  You'll see valleys of darkness and all you must defeat
  But they are places to pass through- Not to reside

  You know that I hold you high above the world we see
  Maybe I should bring you down
  Cause it's been so long and my arms have just been shaking weak
  How I hate to see you on the ground

  I know you've probably got your head around it
  and called it compromise
  But when you sleep are you scared to close your eyes
  We all had expectations of what our lives would be
  I think it's never too late to decide

  When I see you - I see through all your circumstantial moves
  Maybe I should close my eyes
  Cause it's been so long and I can't do anything but lose
  How I hate to see you compromised

  I hear you're fine
  I'm here, I'm trying
  To make it through all these valleys of my own

  You know that I hold you high above the world we see
  I think it's time I bring you down
  Cause it's been so long and my heart is just breaking weak
  How I hate to see you on the ground
  I think it's time I bring you down